tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336942037654414434.post1582272229175615542..comments2019-08-14T17:37:50.612-04:00Comments on Out Loud: The Enigma of TimeAEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10768571834357973576noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336942037654414434.post-70424809030034157702011-12-08T00:13:33.515-05:002011-12-08T00:13:33.515-05:00I know the end is out there. I feel like I somewha...I know the end is out there. I feel like I somewhat cheated you guys because I left some factors out. But, I already feel numb and raw enough. (I know numb and raw are contradictions, but I'm sure you know how it is possible.) Honestly, it's a blind acceptance of this... whatever "this" is. Thank you for sharing, for letting me know you guys are still out there. <br /><br />@Simontall, sometimes the not-in-real-life feels more real than the IRL stuff does. The most supportive person to me right now is a woman I have never met face to face.AEhttp://aeoutloud.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336942037654414434.post-35021918629320187772011-12-07T16:24:58.359-05:002011-12-07T16:24:58.359-05:00I know what it's like to be in so much pain an...I know what it's like to be in so much pain and so down in the dumps that you can't even write. Sadly, what put me in that position was my pregnancy, something that should have been a happy event but became a constant battle that came near to breaking my marriage. You ever seen those lists with something like 60 pregnancy symptoms on them? I had 55. Bad. The worst 3 were back problems, pubis symphis dysfunction (basically my hips didn't work - I coudn't walk, sit, or lie without pain) and carpal tunnel - so my hands didn't work either! I had TIME to write but couldn't motivate myself to do it. I was at the editing stage, I had feedback from beta readers, and emotionally I was not in the right place to cope with criticism on my writing. It was a dark time. Fortunately I knew there definitely was an end in sight - it just seemed a long time coming. The experience seriously affected our decision to have another child. We decided yes (after much hard thinking) but we've invested an insane amount of money in a spa to help me in my second pregnancy. That may seem silly for something that last 9 months but I consider it an investment in my marriage. <br /><br />I hope the end of your tunnel is closer than mine seemed at times.Ciara Ballintynehttp://ciaraballintyne.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336942037654414434.post-19186914014002356402011-12-07T09:40:34.397-05:002011-12-07T09:40:34.397-05:00I don't know you but I feel I know your pain. ...I don't know you but I feel I know your pain. I wouldn't be so presumptions to say understand what you go through, but feel from your words I have felt similar.<br />You are right to say that you are not alone, and the romantic, alturistic part of me would be right there looking after you as only friends can do, if I were in your real world, but I am not. <br />I cannot offer solutions but only the comforting thought, it is ok to be in limbo sometimes, in a liminal space between things waiting. Like a cat gone into hiding to lick its wounds. The tunnel will end. And it will transform some things. Look for them they might be good. <br />As for family, comfort yourself with the knowledge that you do the right things when they do not. As the years have gone by I have distanced myself from my family but still done the right things. <br />Anyway I hope you don't mind my modest comments of support. We are out here...if you need us...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com